What do you call someone with perfect eye sight but who wishes to identify as a blind person? TRANSBLIND is apparently a thing.
Jewel Shuping has BIID or body integrity idenity disorder. This is a condition in which able bodied people convince themselves they should be disabled and its down right scary.
Jewel says that she had a lifelong dream to be disabled, specifically blind. She said:
“When I was young my mother would find me walking in the halls at night, when I was three or four years old.
“By the time I was six I remember that thinking about being blind made me feel comfortable.”
The North Carolina woman first attracted media attention in 2015 for telling her story about pouring drain cleaner in her eyes. I would say it was ALL about attention. Insanity!
She fantasized about losing her sight. She spent hours staring directly at the sun. Of course, her mother warned her that it would damage her eyes.
At first, Shuping simply pretended to be blind. She went out with sunglasses on, her eyes closed, and using a cane. She also became fluent in braille. But after a while, that just wasn’t enough.
Determined to make her dream a reality, Jewel found a psychologist willing to help her become blind. She compared it to a deaf person wanting to get a cochlear implant. Oh brother!
The psychologist put numbing eye drops in both eyes. Then, they used a couple of drops of drain cleaner in each eye.
Jewel said: “It hurt, let me tell you. My eyes were screaming and I had some drain cleaner going down my cheek burning my skin.
“But all I could think was ‘I am going blind, it is going to be okay.”
“When I woke up the following day I was joyful, until I turned on to my back and opened my eyes. I was so enraged when I saw the TV screen.”
Over the next six months, the sight in both her eyes slowly went away. Her left eye suffered a ‘corneal meltdown’. It collapsed in on itself. Yes, gross. The eye to be removed. Her right eye had glaucoma and cataracts, as well as, a webbing of scars.
Shuping is willing to admit that her self-mutilation stems from a disorder, and she says she hopes others don’t follow her path.
“Don’t go blind the way I did. I know there is a need but perhaps someday there will be treatment for it.”
“I really feel this is the way I was supposed to be born, that I should have been blind from birth.
“When there’s nobody around you who feels the same way, you start to think that you’re crazy. But I don’t think I’m crazy, I just have a disorder.”
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Here are 5 examples in the following video, including Jewel herself.
H/T Barcroft TV